Monday, November 2, 2009

Exploration Of The Gray

I've been thinking of quitting my new job after a week of doing it. I find some of the tasks given to me unethical and even illegal. I don't want to go to the nitty-gritty, but trust me, it's like cheating in exams. But because they pay well, I continue to cheat. The 9 units of Theology I took in college--gone. 9 units of philosophy--gone. My school's Credo, mission and vision--all gone. They're like stars that exploded into the darkest of black holes.

I need this job. I have a baby to raise. His father's salary is not enough to feed us. I'll only do this for a couple of months anyway. I'll have a real job next year in Australia. So I think this could do no harm.--I can keep telling this to myself forever but it won't change the fact that I'm cheating. I'm cheating. I'm cheating. And I can't deal with it. It's eating up my nerves every freakin' day.

By mere chance or by destiny (can't possibly know), I encountered a blog that has this phrase on it: "These people need to realize that just because you can do something, it means you should...." Timely, right?

After having read that, I found myself in deep contemplation.

Morality or practicality?
My soul or my child?

To hell with this. I have 4 more articles to write.

No time to waste.

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